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I suppose it's about that time. Time to overlook my life at this very moment. I am very excited to be moving to California. I believe it will be the step I need to progress my future. Staying in DC won't get my anywhere new. What sucks is that I will have to leave those behind who have been there for me these past 5 years of living here. I'm so nervous to get there & just feel alone. I won't know who to trust, who to turn to. But I will not be afraid to open up or else I know I will never be able to find those great people out there who will do the same for me. This is the only the test of my strength & I continue to grow stronger. There is so much for me to see & to learn. Bring it on Cali...

So I was reading an article in a magazine today about true friends. It was about quality versus quantity. I used to be that girl who wanted to make sure everyone was happy. I didn't really stop to make sure I was being fulfilled. I would get upset but forgive too easily to people. I was never part of the "party crew" in highschool. I never really realized why I wasn't like them. Why didn't I have like 1,000 friends to hang out with on the weekends like them. I was always the girl who had a few close friends, but it was hard to hold on to them. There has definately been a select few that have lasted through & through. I am so thankful for them. I definately learned that it's not about having the most friends, because there's always that chance of getting hurt. After graduation I got to whitness this first hand. Hanging around those people, ya are fun at first. But seeing how much the majority of the people don't even like eachother. I know I would never want to associate myself with people who act nice to my face then turn around & talk shit about me to another behind my back. It breaks my heart to see people live like that! I've had my fair share of getting backstabbed from those I really thought were the real deals. It really hurts but that just shows how much you have to cherish those who want to prove to you that they will always have your back. Goes to show that quality really is better than quantity, ya know? I really hope for the best for all of you. It may hurt at first but if you currently have a relationship with a significant other or a friend, don't feel bad to speak your mind. Let them know how you feel if you don't think you're getting your fair share of the deal. My friendships have grown so much by just speaking my mind. I am always up to express what makes me upset. It may not end up the way I wished but I ultimately feel better about myself.

Thank you to all those who have been so open & kind to me thus far. Buzznet really has been a great experience & I love meeting you all. It's great just to hear about how the rest of the world lives ya know? I don't get to be everywhere at once, but I can learn all I can through you. I hope to hear from more of you & to be here for caring & advise if needed. I'm definately a good listener & still love to help others. I'm sorry about this ridiculously long entry & if you actually read this then I love you.ha You are amazing. I was actually considering making a video blog next. What do ya think?